I hate that I had to make the choice, but I don't regret letting her live. I won't.
Would you be willing to do me a favor? I can't walk currently, and it's hard to get a wheelchair out the front door.
I told Rollo I'd go to the library and get us some books. He's interested in continuing his studies to keep up routine, and offered to help me do the same since the girls and I did the same during the outbreak, but I can't like this. If you could get some, that'd be a great help for that, and it'd give us something to do! If you let me know when you're on your way back, I'll have tea or hot chocolate ready for you. :)
I wouldn't either. Thank you for thinking of her. She's not from a place where things like this happen in the open. I still wish this hadn't happened to you.
I can get the books, though. Please don't strain yourself. Are there any subjects in particular he's looking for?
Honestly? I'd love something just light and fluffy after the past couple of days. Otherwise I can't actually say I have a preference. This is actually me trying something new! But I feel like you and my friend Miki are similar, so I want to trust your choice.
Ohhhh yeah. It was a rough night, and then I woke up here! And then it got WORSE. Very impressive, 0/10 stars though.
Miki is a little strict and a little harsh- but not in a bad way, I promise. When she cares, she's got that same tone you do- I bet if she could, she would have sent messages like yours too. So it makes me want to get to know you better!
Miki's the sort of person who pushes and challenges until it's time to rest. She's also very sweet and diligent and without her, we probably would never have gotten as far as we did. She reads a lot, and has taken to writing everything we do down. I'm very proud of her as her upperclassman.
[ He takes a little bit to himself to respond to that, but does eventually. ]
If we're going to be stuck here for any longer than this, we may as well. It's good to be able to help each other where we can.
Your friend sounds like someone I'd appreciate being a mentor to. I do have to stay with Epel and Kalim and the others right now, but I'll be sure to let you know what I've found in the library when I head there.
Please stay safe. Someone with your resolve is likely hurting just as much, so please don't act like you're fine when you're not.
Until we next talk, then. Do let me know if there's anything else I can do for you.
I hope someday you can meet her in a place kinder than this.
And I understand! I didn't get to catch Kalim during the aftermath, but I did get to be with Epel. I know you being there means a lot to him.
Thank you, and I will. I promise. On both parts at the end there I mean. But you be sure to rest, too. Being the caretaker has it's own struggles. Just because you weren't there doesn't mean you have to tear yourself apart to fill in the gaps.
[ He won't reply further, but the message is seen and read, and appreciated. After all, he has to be the pillar here... he wasn't there, he didn't go through what his teammates did. He doesn't know most of them, but that doesn't mean he isn't feeling the weight of this place suddenly bear down on him.
He wants to go home. He wants to help everyone get home. But he can't be afraid. That's why he can't fall right now. Maybe later, when no one is looking... ]
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:12 pm (UTC)I'm sorry you had to make that choice at all, but I imagine I would have done the same in your place.
You said your world was just as harsh- but that doesn't mean you weren't likely as hurt by this situation.
Is there anything I can get you?
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:21 pm (UTC)I hate that I had to make the choice, but I don't regret letting her live. I won't.
Would you be willing to do me a favor? I can't walk currently, and it's hard to get a wheelchair out the front door.
I told Rollo I'd go to the library and get us some books. He's interested in continuing his studies to keep up routine, and offered to help me do the same since the girls and I did the same during the outbreak, but I can't like this. If you could get some, that'd be a great help for that, and it'd give us something to do! If you let me know when you're on your way back, I'll have tea or hot chocolate ready for you. :)
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:37 pm (UTC)I can get the books, though. Please don't strain yourself. Are there any subjects in particular he's looking for?
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:40 pm (UTC)He didn't mention any, and I'm not sure what all would be studied at a magic school. Sorry. :(
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:42 pm (UTC)Anything you'd like to read in particular, though?
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Date: 2023-11-13 08:51 pm (UTC)no pressure i promise
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Date: 2023-11-13 11:37 pm (UTC)What is your friend Miki like?
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Date: 2023-11-14 12:19 am (UTC)Miki is a little strict and a little harsh- but not in a bad way, I promise. When she cares, she's got that same tone you do- I bet if she could, she would have sent messages like yours too. So it makes me want to get to know you better!
Miki's the sort of person who pushes and challenges until it's time to rest. She's also very sweet and diligent and without her, we probably would never have gotten as far as we did. She reads a lot, and has taken to writing everything we do down. I'm very proud of her as her upperclassman.
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Date: 2023-11-16 11:05 am (UTC)If we're going to be stuck here for any longer than this, we may as well. It's good to be able to help each other where we can.
Your friend sounds like someone I'd appreciate being a mentor to. I do have to stay with Epel and Kalim and the others right now, but I'll be sure to let you know what I've found in the library when I head there.
Please stay safe. Someone with your resolve is likely hurting just as much, so please don't act like you're fine when you're not.
Until we next talk, then. Do let me know if there's anything else I can do for you.
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Date: 2023-11-16 11:30 am (UTC)I hope someday you can meet her in a place kinder than this.
And I understand! I didn't get to catch Kalim during the aftermath, but I did get to be with Epel. I know you being there means a lot to him.
Thank you, and I will. I promise. On both parts at the end there I mean. But you be sure to rest, too. Being the caretaker has it's own struggles. Just because you weren't there doesn't mean you have to tear yourself apart to fill in the gaps.
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Date: 2023-11-16 11:58 am (UTC)[ He won't reply further, but the message is seen and read, and appreciated. After all, he has to be the pillar here... he wasn't there, he didn't go through what his teammates did. He doesn't know most of them, but that doesn't mean he isn't feeling the weight of this place suddenly bear down on him.
He wants to go home. He wants to help everyone get home. But he can't be afraid. That's why he can't fall right now. Maybe later, when no one is looking... ]