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[shoveltalks]

nope
some people roll with it and some people don't
but the way you feel having to explain it? it never changes. and i don't think i can fit in the same as people who haven't experienced it as well anymore either

[giraffic]

the things they worry about seem so silly

eating with your hands, make up, money not existing. meanwhile there's a building with unlimited food that just shows up, so they're not hungry. no one can get in the team houses, so they're safe. even the infected seem to just stay where they are instead of bringing this entire place down.

[shoveltalks]

some things i can't say anything about, me and the girls tried to live as normally as possible despite everything
i remember leaving money on counters when we went to stores for supplies
minding our manners

for us it was something to hold on to so we didn't lose our minds but it was all stuff i could give up in a heartbeat if it meant living another day

i can't fathom how that used to be my world sometimes.

[giraffic]

by the time i was born, it was all already gone. ive gone through the stores though. its so weird to think you could just walk in a store and get food or music for money. ive never even handled money...

joel said there used to be trucks that went around selling ice cream to kids in their houses. it sounds so easy.

[shoveltalks]

admittedly money feels like. super overrated. but it was "normal" so we kept it up as best we could.

(part of this is because yuki was dealing with active delusions so we played along for her sake.)

we didn't have that in japan but we did have food trucks! they'd park in good spots and sell food to passers-by. lots of vendors used little carts to push around too since streets were really narrow.

[giraffic]

delusions...

it must have been hard, having everything you know fall apart like that.

[shoveltalks]

she couldn't cope with reality, so she convinced herself it was all... normal, still. the infected were just dangerous delinquents. she could still go to classes, and as long as we set up rules in a frame of reference she'd accept, she'd stay in the safezone.

it was. but i don't know how i'd be if i was born after the fact, either.

i hope you don't have to be strong someday.

[giraffic]

is she better now?

it'll happen. if we can just get me to the Fireflies, everything will be better. we'll make a vaccine somehow.

[shoveltalks]

she's been really reliable lately! she can hear things really well so she can let us know when something's approaching. and she's been more proactive and diligent. honestly a part of me wonders if she was starting to come back down to reality but acted like she wasn't for our sakes.

i hope so! i really do.

[giraffic]

[ its a little while befote she replies again ]

what was a normal school like? and cafes? have you ever had coffee?

[shoveltalks]

it was a lot? it felt boring and tedious a lot of the time. it was a bunch of us in one classroom and our teachers would switch out depending on what subject was being taught, save for home ec and phys ed- cooking and our physical activities

i was part of the track team which was running and vaulting competitively, which probably sounds silly but it was fun.

i didn't realize how much i'd miss everything until it was gone.

cafes were really fun. they'd play nice music and they'd have the nicest treats and drinks. including coffee! i like tea and coffee both, but coffee's really easy to mess up because it's bitter. i can't drink it black...